"Through the weekend workshop, I had a couple of hours where I "really" wanted to be on the Transformation seat. I wanted to be heard for whatever problem I had at the time (I honestly don't even remember what). For about 2 hours I kept feeling like "I wasn't being picked" and that was poking at my "Being Unseen" void. It was so cool, because, I would be listening, and then I would go into these (above) thoughts and feelings and I suddenly noticed I wasn't listening to anything that was being said. My entire focus was on my/ mine/I. I am so thankful for all the clearings of the weekend that are still coursing through me, because when I started to LISTEN, I realized that every person in the Transformation Seat was asking about things I wanted to ask about. There was not one person, who was moving through something that was irrelevant to me. When this "seeing myself as the unseen victim" cleared for me, it was like I just woke up from a heavy hazy dream. All of this happened during the Sunday morning piece. I realized this new level of making myself a victim and how it was safe. Blaming others for not seeing me, not "allowing" me to speak and such. And not realizing that the Universe knows what I'm struggling with and my questions are LITERALLY being answered and cleared in that moment, but I'm tuned into my victim frequency, so I can't hear it. I am so thankful for the Hand of God changing my frequency and now I can HEAR it! I was rejecting the clearing because I didn't get to ask. It wasn't coming in the way I wanted. I was also disconnecting from community and God in those few hours, because I had wanted to speak and share. I am SO SO THANKFUL, to get kicked out of this deeply entrenched place and thought process. And to everyone of you who was in the Transformation Seats - thank you thank you thank you! You guys pulled up and out TONS of old programming. You are brilliant and perfect and stunningly beautiful in your journey! This whole weekend was absolutely perfect for me and was more than what I required. Thank you again Tracy L Clark! So much love everyone!! Aarti Mathur"
